SIGH

This is sooooooooooooo frustrating. Hostel application to NUS is not successful! Gosh, how long it'll take me to travel day and night now... i really feel quite frustrated liao. Then there is the bidding system and the crowded shuttle buses...... so hectic! Why NUS like that. It's supposed to be a good university, but how come i feel like everything is so messy... how come they can't cater to students' needs? Why has that been subjected to availability? I feel a bit unfair and irritated. i'm a freshman and already i'm beginning to feel irritation for my new school. Yikes! I don't like that things are so messed up. :(

the things we want from life.

They say life is all about choices. They say you have a choice to make your decision. Well, that's a fallacy because sometimes it's not the choices you made, it's the choice others made. and their choice can be the reason dreams and ambitions are one step further instead of nearer. because right now, i'm thinking of the things that i truly want. and it's ironic when life gives you some and takes away some and even more so if the things it gave you are the things you've chosen to reject and those that it's taken away are the things you wanted to accept. is it because it's mocking me? because it's angered by the fact that i should turn away from what it's given me in the first place? so it let others execute its punishment towrads me through the choices that they made?

sometimes life ain't fair. and at this particular moment, i'm feeling the impact of those words. life ain't fair not because it's like a game or a drama. it ain't fair cos it makes the final decision after you've made your choice. and its decision today is what's making me feel sad at this moment. and not just today but also many other decisions it's made. i've smiled and shrugged through all those. but not today. not this one. because i've done the best i could. maybe it just wasn't good enough for life at this moment. no pun intended.